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I am a college student at Boise State University about to finish my Master's in Social Work degree in May. After that, who knows?
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October 07

60 days left and counting...

I have 60 days left!  I actually took some 31 week pictures, but my computer was being finicky yesterday and refusing to load them!  I'll try again later!
 
Quick update:
Our house FINALLY sold, so me and my husband are now trying to find and buy one of our own.  Which is SUPER overwhelming - The cost!  Finding the perfect house!  Understanding the fees! Making an offer!  The cost!
 
I've cut back on my work hours.  I'm now working with adults (something I haven't done in a while, I've only been working with adolescents) and its a really nice change.  I adore the clients and my coworkers and its nice to work with people who WANT to be helped (many teenagers do not!).  It breaks my heart at moments to think that I'm working with people's parents/grandparents/wives/husbands and to think that mental illness has so debilitated them, but hopefully I can at least be a good listener and pass along some information about dealing with those issues.
 
My baby shower was this weekend - hooray!  I think people had fun and I have 90% of the nursery ready...just a few more things to buy and I'll be ready for Miss Olivia! :)  
September 27

70 days left...and random thoughts...

So as the title suggests, I only have 70 days left until my due date!  I told my husband and he gave me a cartoon-like look...like this: Surprised  Seriously.
 
I started my childbirth classes which were super helpful and informative.  We have three more which is exciting!  Its neat being in a room full of expecting couples, kind of normalizes the experience!
 
Still working, although its getting difficult.  And someone said to me recently..."Wow you don't look pregnant.  I'm used to people being all round, not jiggly."  Open-mouthed  It cracked me up.  Some people get really offended when people make rude or odd comments to pregnant women.  Not me.  It seems like pregnancy opens people's social floodgates...when else do you ask women about their breasts/cervix/bowel movements?  But all in all, I'm feeling good.  I've gained about 10 1/2 pounds, so I actually look pregnant, not chunky (which I really worried about with my tendency to struggle with weight).  I walked 2 miles a few nights ago, and I'm feeling spry 80% of the time! 
 
That being said, I'm ok with only 70 days left!  I can't wait to be a mommy (which shocks my husband...I'm not the nurturing type!).
 
On a different note, I watched part of the presidential debate last night and realized three things:
1. McCain is SOO much more articulate than our current president.  When he's on fire about something, he does not seem like the doddering grandfather people make him out to be.
2. I really hate debates.  I just want to jump in and say "take your turn" or "the 2 minutes is up already!"  For the most part, McCain and Obama seemed to do ok.
3. Some of the articles were complaining that there were no real knockout punches between them.  GOOD!  I got soo disgusted with the CONSTANT bickering between Kerry and Bush in the last election.  I respect both candidates this time immensely because although they were doing little jabs here and there (as there always is in a debate), they were not tearing each other apart.  They behaved like gentlemen.
 
And one last thing, I read an email going around about Sarah Palin criticizing her for being a hypocrite because she promoted abstinence education and her 17-year-old is pregnant.  GET OVER IT!  As someone who works with teenagers, you can push your values on them, but at a certain point, if they are going to sneak out and have sex with their boyfriend, THEY WILL DO IT.  Regardless of what the parents believe.  And on my pregnancy forums online, there are many many many 17 and 18 year olds getting knocked up these days.  So STOP sending snipey emails about Palin's daughter.  Criticize her policies, but do not use her personal life in that way.  (Can you imagine how crappy the daughter feels...like "oh great, I totally screwed up in the public eye" when she should be excited about being a mom!)
 
*Ahem* I am stepping off my sopabox now. 
September 18

Some pics!

I totally realized today that I had not updated my preggy pics in a while!  So here you guys go!  My most recent is 25 weeks, this Saturday I'll be at 29 weeks and I'll take a new one!

Enjoy!

79 days to go!

So as the heading suggests, I only have 79 days left till my due date!  I remember when I hit 150 days left and that seemed like forever!  I think one day I'll wake up and it will be 30 days and I'll be in shock!
 
Things are going good!  Olivia's measuring where she should be, I feel her often and we've got the nursery 75% ready!  My bipolar's definitely been interesting.  I get very depressed and I'm suffering from severe anxiety.  However, I just found a counselor to work with and should start going here in the next few weeks.  I'm terrified of postpartum depression, so I want to have all my counseling ducks in a row before I have the baby.
 
I'm still working but my job is very very stressful and as I get bigger, its getting harder to do!  I'm gonna start working two days a week, and soon drop to 1 1/2 days a week.  I'm torn between my desire to make money and feeling so pooped at the end of the day that I don't want to ever go back!
 
I just have to be patient and have faith...something that I've been really struggling with.  I think as I get closer to the end, and bigger, I'm really going to start struggling emotionally.  But with counseling and support from family and friends, hopefully I'll get through this trying time in my life!
 
Oh and my baby shower's in two weeks, so that should be fun! :)
August 30

And the VP is who???

If you had asked me, who do you think Mccain will pick as a running mate, the LAST thing I would have said would be a young female governor!  I was totally shocked.  Once I thought about it strategically, I'm not so shocked, but boy, I learned yesterday that even jaded people like myself can be surprised by politicians (and not just in a "you had an affair with whom/what/etc??"). 
 
It cracked me up after the announcement because my local news came on.  And lately I have been bitching about our local news.  We live in a super low-crime, low-events (no hurricaines, tornados, earthquakes here) area, so our local news will get one story and hash the absolute crap out of it.  So yesterday, Matt Lauer tells me (and millions of others) about McCain's choice.  Gives a little bit of info, awesome, concise, done.
 
Then the local news comes on.  Well it turns out Palin graduated from University of Idaho (just like me!).  So the local newsguy repeats everything Matt Lauer just said, but to make it "local" talks about her going to U of Idaho.  Then he says something like "our station is going to U of I today to see if we can get you more information on Palin."  Umm....yeah.  She graduated in 1987.  I doubt there are many people who remember her after 21 YEARS!  But hey, local newspeople have to spin it somehow right?
 
Does anyone else have news stations with too much "free" time on their hands?
August 29

Less than 100 days!

WOW!  I am finally in the double digit range till my due date!  Tomorrow I am at 26 weeks, which means as of tomorrow, I only have 98 days left till my due date!  That's exciting!  Olivia has been kicking and moving a ton!  We also bought a SUPER cute stroller/car seat set that is pink and gray!  I got a great deal!

I've been cutting back on work quite a bit.  I love my job, but I work with troubled adolescents and I don't always feel safe around them.  Its not that they are unsafe, its just that I feel so vulnerable at moments.  Last week, I had nightmares about my job, so I decided I need to take care of my mental health first!  In spite of my desire to earn money and pay off debt!

And its been wonderful to have free time!  I've been making cards!  I made 20 thank you cards for my baby shower this weekend, and then I made 24 invitations for my second baby shower in October!  WOW!  Its so fun, although making a few cards is much more fun than frantically making 20.  I'll take some pics for you all!

Enjoy your three-day weekend everyone!

August 20

Registries, morning sickness and funnel cake, oh my!

So I'm going to Spokane for a baby shower in a few weeks (I'm having one up there as a joint thing with my sister-in-law who's due in Oct, and then one down here).  I'm frantically trying to get my registry ready, although the word on the street is that people rarely buy you things from your registry....So we'll see!  I have the big stuff, but I've been adding little things like a headrest, a car mirror, etc. here and there.  Its at least getting me thinking about what I'll need for the baby!
 
I've finally started buying clothes...I figured that at 20 weeks, I needed to buck up, get excited and realize that I am having a baby!  So me and my mom have done several consignment store runs, so I have a dresser full of clothes for under $100!
 
The house still has not sold, its just a terrible market right now.  The latest figures are 5000 empty houses for sale in the Boise valley area.  We live in just one of many beautiful, good deal houses.  So I'm going to just start organizing the nursery here, and if I have to move later, so be it.  I am disappointed because we were going to paint a mural, but that will probably not happen!  I might just make a big painting and hang that up!
 
I'm frantically trying to find Hello Kitty fabric to make a diaper bag.  I have two on Ebay that I'm looking at.
 
Other than that, I've been working about 20 hours a week and trying to keep myself busy!  I'm making invitations (with a friend) for my baby shower, so I've been scouring the shops for stamps, paper, etc.  Let me tell you, when they said scrapbooking was expensive, I didn't fully believe it!  But its true!  I remember those wooden stamps being like $5 (maybe) back in the day, but now that card making and scrapbooking are trendy, they are WAY more than that!  I'm off to Wal-mart today to see what it can do for me!
 
As far as morning sickness goes, still sick most mornings.  I made it to the fair last night and let me tell you, funnel cake with powdered sugar is to die for!  I split it with three other people, who all kept saying "I don't know how one person could eat all this."  Hmm....that sounds like a challenge to me!  I could definitely eat a whole one! :)
August 09

More time flying by...

I really really wish I wasn't blogging because I was out being busy and useful...but the truth is, I'm just too lazy to write.  After two years of graduate school, its hard to get motivated to write anything but case notes at work (and even those end up being "interestingly" written).
 
Olivia (our baby) is doing good!  I'm still sick every morning, but pregnancy is nice!  I definitely won't be one of those moms that LOVED being pregnant, but its been an interesting experience that I am blessed to have.
 
We watched the Olympic Opening Ceremonies last night.  Always interesting...although the ENDLESS commentary got a little old.  It was neat to see all of the people marching, although the stabbing of the volleyball coach's family and some of the sad facts about the Middle Eastern countries kind of dampened my "go world!" feeling.  I think it was Afghanistan? that had one woman athlete (progress!) but she has disappeared from the country after recieving death threats.  Then hearing about the stabbing, I'm not feeling as patriotic and excited as when watching the ones in Greece four years ago.  It was a reminder that an elaborate ceremony cannot make up or heal the violence and evil in the world.
 
Anybody else a little unenthusiastic about the Olympics this year?
 
Ugh...I just saw a commerical that says 4 out of 10 high schoolers do not graduate.  I am not surprised, but it breaks my heart....
July 24

Time is flying...

I'm in total shock about how quickly summer is passing by.  My last posting was July 6, meaning I've known about my little girl for three weeks now!  WOW!  (and yes, I have several pink outfits now).
 
Things have been pretty consistent.  I'm working a couple days a week and loving my job.  I'm getting big/hot/uncomfortable, and yet I worked 34 hours from Friday to Tuesday, and still left each day with a bounce in my step.  I am so proud to be a social worker and I really enjoy my job/coworkers/clients.  In a few months, I may feel different as I get huge, but for now, I'm so blessed!
 
Today is my 4-year anniversary which is also amazing.  I can't believe how lucky I've been to be married to such a wonderful person for 4 years.  And this year is especially wonderful because we both have wonderful jobs, and our little girl is less than 20 weeks away!
 
The one thorn in my side (though its a small one) is that our house is on the market.  Its been about 2 months and I DESPISE running around every morning cleaning for realtors who are here for 5 or 10 minutes.  One woman today called me just as I had gone down for a nap (hey, I am pregnant!) and said "can we come by in a half hour" and at the end of the call said "so i'll see you in 45 minutes."  She didn't show up for an hour and 15 minutes.  Then was only here for a few minutes.
 
I'm so tired of the house being on the market.  I am grateful that I can live in a big beautiful house, but its getting harder to clean and bend over!  All in God's timing....
July 06

So unprepared for this...

So we had another ultrasound and the baby is for sure a girl!  Hooray!  Our number one name right now is Olivia June.

So there are moments when I feel ready for this baby and there are moments where I'm so in over my head.  Like when we decided to register at Target (you can always check out our registry and buy something if you want...).  And I was standing with the gun and the list of what I should buy and my husband by my side, I stared at the bottles and realized I know NOTHING about what to buy a child!  I was staring at all of my options (drop-in, big, little, etc.) and as we stood there together for 20 minutes look blankly, we realized how unprepared we are.  Interestingly, my husband worked at a daycare for 5 1/2 years, BUT did not really work with infants (he worked with two-year-olds and up), so although I thought he'd know what to buy, he was lost too!

So we got our registry started.  I'm sure there is stuff missing, and really, is the bathtub we registered for THAT much better than the others?  Who knows, but it humbles me to think that maybe I still have several months of learning to do...

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But not necessarily in this order.